Turning My Heart Toward Him

I journal as a discipline. It actually helps me focus when I am praying. It also ruthlessly points out when I am talking to God way too much about me. Yesterday I caught myself having a monologue about myself with God in the room so I stopped. I thought I would share what I wrote then because it profoundly changed the way I experienced God and the rest of the day.

"Too much me. Lord, you are the one who is sovereign. You know what you want to accomplish, who you are working on. You are the author and perfector of faith. You created the cosmos, as I read yesterday, you formed the sun and moon and the stars...made all things and called them good. You made the rivers and the mountains, the ecosystem (which I am completely impressed by), the sky and the seasons... and it was good. You made a place for the one in your image, the garden and placed man in the middle and it was very good. You walked with him there in the garden and then in your goodness you made for him a companion... Isha(Hebrew for woman. Ish is man) and the two reflected the community of the trinity. Your nature in flesh. And they broke your heart. And we have been breaking your heart ever since. We have loved others, given our deepest affections, made them our heart's desire and they have come back to abuse and enslave us. And you, like a jealous lover, came to rescue us (Hosea) and moved heaven and earth to get us back. You gave us yourself on the cross to pay for the infidelity of your bride and you ask us again and draw us to yourself. So I come to experience you as King and Savior and Friend and Love".

Reminding myself of the greatest story and the greatest movement of love the world has ever known changed my heart and my focus. I hope it does the same for you today.